It's the Little Things

I got a book for Christmas called Kisses from Katie. It's a true story of a girl who feels led to go to Uganda, Africa for a short mission trip but ends up moving there to be a kindergarden teacher as soon as she graduates high school. Totally unprepared for what she was about to encounter, God takes this 18 year old girl from Tennessee and flips her life completely upside down. In a year's time she goes from kindergarden teacher, to nurse, to creating a ministry to raise money for kids who cannot afford to go to school, to a mother of 14 little girls.

I know this sounds like a crazy story, or even to some people, a dumb story...but when you read the words of this young girl and see how God teaches her to love so unconditionally every person she comes into contact with...it honestly makes me ashamed of myself. I have a hard time going a whole day without fighting with my own sisters.

There has been an ache in my heart for a while now and I have never been able to describe it. I thought maybe God wanted me to go into missionary work, but as I started reading this book (perfect timing by the way) I realized that I can achieve so much of God's work right among my own little bubble of life. Even in the smallest way, to the person on the receiving end, it can seem so huge. That right there is a ministry in itself.

I pray God changes my heart. I want Him to make me selfless, humble, caring, and passionate about projecting His love and His life through my own. Thinking of these things, this song comes to mind:

I want to live the way He wants me to live,
I want to give until there's just no more to give,
I want to love, love 'til there's just no more love,
For I could never, ever out love the Lord.

Use me Lord...